Is This The End?

"... so i really hope we can work things out... for the sake of colby... and maybe us?" colin said. shayna sighed, she heard enough. sometimes she really did not know what to make out of all this. maybe she made a wrong decision to meet him and talk it out. she looked out of the shop, trying to rest her eyes on something that she had less emotional attachment to. then, she saw... is that who she thinks it is? oh no... it's megan. she's walking in this way.
"erm... colin. there is something you should know..." shayna said, pointing towards megan.
"what?" colin asked and looked towards the direction shayna was pointing at. "oh no..." he said. colin quickly stood up and walked towards megan and led her out of the shop before she could enter and create a fuss.

"what are you doing here meg?" colin asked.
"ha. i was about to ask you the same question. you said you were very busy with work. and now i see you here... with that... that social worker?!" megan said, sounding really pissed off.
"meg, i was just discussing somethings with her. it's not what you imagine!"
"right. and i'm not a fool alright colin. you lied to me. you were suppose to meet my parents today and you said you were busy working... more like working it with HER!"
"meg stop it alright! you are making something out of nothing!"
"i'm making something out of nothing? then what is this i catch you doing? buying her flowers, spending time with her when you should with ME and my family!" megan said, close to tears.
"i will meg... it's just that colby needs shayna and i need to help colby get better... and..."
"oh... so now colby, this shayna girl and your work is more important now... more important than meeting my parents who has been waiting to see you for ages."
"it's not that meg... please..."
"shut up. i don't want to listen anymore. and i thought i was the one in the wrong. it's you colin. just leave me alone." megan said, shoving the cake and coffee in his hands and walking away.
"argh. women." colin said and walked back towards Soup Junction where he saw shayna packing up to leave.

"oh no. not you too," colin said, sounding disappointed.
"i think you have something to settle with your girlfriend. she's not very happy is she? maybe i should leave and you can spend some time with her," shayna suggested, giving him an encouraging smile.
"no. it's alright. megan's just a little upset about something. don't worry. it's not you."
"are you sure? she sure looked pissed about seeing you here with me. maybe i should leave. i have to study for my test tomorrow too... "
"oh yeah. why don't we take a drive around town? i promise to send you home by 8 so you can study... please?" colin begged. shayna hesistated but eventually agreed. she had already gone this far, how bad can a drive be?
colin finally smiled and ushered her towards his car.

***

as they drove around town, shayna just stared out the window. blankly. the buildings, the people, the vehicles just passed her by... maybe her life was like that. everything was just a passing phase. maybe this thing with colin... if there ever was a thing... is just another phase... just like what someone did to her life a few years ago...
"so, what test is it?" colin asked, interrupting shayna's thoughts.
"oh.. erm. it's a children psychology test. for work."
"i see. are you enjoying yourself?"
"yeah i am."
"that's good."
well, that's the end of one conversation that didn't go anywhere. shayna sighed. she had to be honest with him... get all the feelings out so that it wouldn't stay there and kill her.

"colin, the reason why i avoided you was that i didn't want to be the third party in your relationship. i don't want to come between you and megan," she finally blurted out. colin's jaw dropped, he couldn't believe that came out of nowhere.
"oh man. you think you are a third party? oh man... shayna, please don't be silly. megan and i are just having our own little problems here and there... it's nothing about you. our friendship doens't affect her at all... well..." colin managed to stop his tongue from running away and blurting out the truth that he had to hide from shayna.
"colin, don't lie to me. megan has got to suspect something about us just now... i mean, you bought me flowers, was talking to me one on one at Soup Junction... she has got to be a little upset and jealous!" that was it. colin had to tell her the truth.
"well, yes. she was a little upset."
"see! i am the third party! i told you. that's why we shouldn't let things continue the way it is. you should get back to megan! that's the way things should be!" shayna said. "please stop the car."
"shayna please don't do this..."
"stop the car colin." colin sighed and stopped the car. as shayna was about to open the car door, he grabbed hold of her hand.
"shayna, please stop. you know... those two days of knowing you and being with you were the best days of my life. you make me see i side of life that i wouldn't be able to see without you. even though we started off with a bad start, things happened and i saw someone, someone that i started to have feelings for. i know it's not right to say this but i have to be honest to myself. shayna, please. yes, you are indeed important to colby... and also, to me." shayna was just lost for words... that was a speech she never expect a chauvanist baboon to say but he did say it... right from his mouth. but this is all wrong. he had a girlfriend and she was obviously the third party. she didn't want to be in this situation and she had to get out. get out of this friendship gone crazy and this car.
"i'm sorry colin. this is goodbye." shayna said. she opened the door and walked out. tears filled her eyes and she ran off into the nearest building, so as not to see colin drive off.
"shayna...." colin cried out but it was too late. she was gone. he closed the door back and slammed his palms on the steering wheel. "argh!" he groaned and then drove off. maybe to vent his anger and relief his hurts.

***

he took one shot... then another and another...
"hey you had too much already!" tyler complained, forcing colin to stop from getting drunk. "i don't want to be driving you home today you know."
"what's the use of going home? megan's mad at me and shayna..." colin couldn't even say her name anymore. it hurt him so much. "argh. just let me drink."
"no. you had 3 shots already. look at yourself. you look even worse than me on my hell days."
"shut up. i'm not as full of shit as you. flirting with a woman you hardly know." colin said, as he watched tyler wave to this girl sitting at the otehr corner of the pub.
"at least i don't get hung up on one until i get myself drunk like a pig. so what's with this shayna girl? i thought you hated each other's guts."
"more like she hates my guts now and i think i'm falling for her."

"woah. you have serious issues man. remember you're attached... two years? megan? meet the parents?" tyler commented, sounding more assertive with each word.
"i know i know. stop sounding like meg alright. but it just happens..."
"WHAT just happens? hello. this isn't fantasy world. it isn't like some fairy tale story. come on spill it."
"she just makes me feel like a different guy. you know, i have never seen a girl give so much love to a kid she hardly knew. when she smiles, she has this innocence about her, yet that character of independence... shayna is something..."
"yeah she's something alright... something to make you pissing drunk."
"shut up. what do you know about her?"
"nothing. that's why i don't end up like you." tyler teased as he nudged his almost drunk friend.
"oh why did i ever chose to talk to you about this? you can't even give me sound advice when you're all caught up with that girl. i'm going off now... see you around chum." colin said as he tried to stand up properly.
"so soon?"
"yeah i have work tomorrow you know... and so do you. i'll see you around." colin clapped his friend on his back and tried to make his way out of the pub and back to his car.

****

shayna stared at her phone. again and again. she didn't know what she was waiting for... for colin to call? what was wrong with her? she rested her chin on the palm of her hand and sighed. this is not working. she wasn't studying much and all she was thinking about was colin.
"stop thinking about him already," she told herself and picked up her pen to start writing some notes.
"think about who?" someone asked. shayna turned and there was her father at the doorway.

"nothing papa."
"is it colin?" Mr. Fong asked.
"papa..." shayna groaned as she plunked her pen back down on the table.
"i hit the nail on the head did i? you talked to him?"
"yes."
"and what happened?"
"and we sorted stuff out..."
"but you don't seem truly sorted out. you miss him don't you."
"papa... you don't have to fill in every blank you know."
"well, your papa has gone through it many times. i know what it's like when you can't have someone and still want that someone to be in your life." shayna thought for awhile. maybe she should talk it out with her father. it would be much easier for her to share since he knew all the little inside stories.

"maybe i do want to see him... talk to him..." she finally admitted.
"yes you do. why don't you call him?"
"but papa! he already has a girlfriend! how can you ask you daughter to be a third party and a relationship breaking bitch?"
"i didn't ask you to break up his relationship. but i do know if you are going to continue ignoring him, you are still gonna stare at your phone constantly, think about him all the time and even lose focus with your studies and work."
"papa, you're not helping much by making me feel guilty you know."
"well, papa knows that you are old enough to make your own decisions. i'm just guiding you on to the right choices. study what you can and rest well tonight." Mr. Fong said as he kissed her on the forehead. shayna smiled. she was glad to have an understanding father.
"goodnight papa.... and thanks for everything." she replied. Mr. Fong smiled as he closed the door.

shayna looked at her phone for the last time before switching it off. now at least she felt better after talking to her father. now it's time to concentrate on the test tomorrow.