The meaning of love

shayna felt her feet backing away. she just stared at him walking towards her and all she could do was to back away.
"get away from me," shayna said, she felt her face turn hot.
"shay... please..."
"colin... I ... I don't wanna see you!" she answered. shayna ran out towards the poolside and colin chased after her. she stopped as she reached the edge of the pool and at that point, she was crying. colin stopped a few feet away from her. he shouldn't force the meeting on her. seeing her cry was the last thing he wanted to see.

"if you don't wanna see me... i will leave then," colin said. he turned around and was about to leave when shayna stopped him.
"it's not that i don't wanna see you," shayna answered, "you... you just hurt me too much."
at that moment, colin's heart melted. did shayna missed him? loved him? cared about him?
"i just... i don't know..." she cupped her palms into her face. he walked towards her and looked into her eyes. her dark hazel eyes were glistening but with tears. he reached out his hands and took hers into his. he was glad to be holding her hands again... after so long. it still sent a tingle down his spine. he knew shayna almost felt the same way. she was looking intently at him too.

"i love you shayna... i know i've not been the best boyfriend you ever had but i love you with all my heart," colin said. shayna rolled her eyes and pulled her hands out from his grasp before turning away from him.
"don't give me all these crap. i don't believe you! you go from woman after woman... and you say the same things to them. love doesn't seem to have a meaning anymore!"
"it does shayna... love had always meant being with you."
shayna squatted down and cupped her ears, "i don't wanna hear! i don't wanna hear!"
"why are you in denial? you know in you heart that you love me too! why can't you come to terms with it than just go into denial with that.... that... timothy guy?!"

shayna gasped and her eyes glared,"i'm in denial?! me? timothy loves me more than you do. he has always been there for me... while you just gallavant around with lila! who's in denial?"
colin went silent.
"i know timothy loves me... cos he... he asked me to marry him."
"WHAT?! and you agreed?"
"i... i..." shayna couldn't bring herself to answer that question.

colin pulled her closer and placed his hands on her shoulder. they stared at each other for awhile.
"shay. if you tell me you love timothy... than i'll..." he sighed, "i'll leave now."
shayna was taken aback. she wanted him to leave now so she could just escape. but right now she also wanted to feel his touch again... feel his kisses and be the risk taker she was back home. timothy was her safe relationship. the one whom she could trust with her life and eveything she has. colin was the one who sat her in his rollercoaster and bringing her through the ride of her life. two very different guys, one torn-in-the-middle girl. she started to tear again.

"tell me how you feel," colin whispered as he wiped her tears, "be honest with me."
shayna closed her eyes and felt his fingers gently touch her face. it was a touch she felt close to.
"i... honestly don't know. both of you are so different and i'm torn."
"so you didn't agree to marry him?" colin asked, almost jumping for joy.
shayna shook her head, "i need more time to think it through."
a smile crept up colin's face.
"let me spend more time with you. i missed you shay," colin said.
"i know. cos i missed you too," shayna said, finally smiling too. colin laughed and cuddled her back in his arms. shayna closed her eyes and enjoyed that special moment. this hug wasn't like any hug.

"before i forget," colin said as they parted, "colby wanted me to hand you this."
shayna looked down at the present. it was a painting and a poem. they were defintely colby's writing and style.

'shayna jie i miss you.
i hope you come back soon.
to bring me to play soccer.
to tell me stories.
and i want to say i love you.'

the painting was of three people. it was of shayna, colin and colby playying soccer together. it was so touching that shayna cried. it felt so family-like... just then she remembered she had been here a little too long.

"god! i forgot about my parents!" shayna gasped.
"you better get back up there. call me later?" colin asked.
"will you be staying in this hotel too?"
colin nodded, "just far away from your best friend. i know she hates my guts."
shayna giggled along too, "i understand. i will call you later. have a good rest."

justa s shayna was about to leave, colin hesistated to do something even more daring. he pulled shayna back and kissed her right smack on the lips. shayna was shocked at first but later kissed him back slowly. she thought she would never feel such a powerful kiss ever again.